March 29, 2009

Eat, Sleep, Change, Repeat

Posted in Breastfeeding, Habits, Organizing tagged , , at 11:02 pm by bk2nocal

That is now my life.  And I guess it will be for a while to come.  I should put “pump” in there somewhere as well, but I’ve been really bad about that the last few days.  It is difficult to get motivated to pump when you really don’t get much milk and its somewhat painful.  I know I should continue to do it and I promise myself at the end of each day that I will be better about it the next day, but I’m not.  And now I have to face the lactation consultant tomorrow morning (we have another Drs. appointment and LC appointment) and I hate that.  Its like being back in school and not getting your assignment done and having to face the teacher.  The guilt…

I also need to try to work on organizing things in there somewhere.  Some days are better than others.  I got our bedroom (which we are now sharing with the bambino) all cleaned and organized yesterday – even vacuumed.  That is pretty good.  Now I need to work on the spare room, where I have moved all of my clothes to have room for the baby stuff in our closet.  In addition to organizing all the clothes and shoes in there, I need to get all the bags of cards and miscellaneous items that have been thrown in there from our stay at my sister’s and the baby showers and just randomness found while cleaning other areas of the house.  After that gets done (which has to happen this week because my in-laws are coming to stay with us next weekend and they will be sleeping in that room), I need to get cracking on the garage, which my sister described as “a baby store bomb went off in here.”  There are empty boxes, full boxes, plus all the other stuff that was in there before all the baby stuff showed up.  It really is an organizational disaster right now.

So, between the eat, sleep, change, repeat each day, I need to fit in these other things in order to be able to go back to work at the end of April without consternation!

If you haven’t figured it out, I’ve been horrible at keeping up with my commitments from the previous post.  I am really close to giving up on breastfeeding.  I don’t WANT to give up, but the whole pumping without enough milk and a baby who is too small to actually latch on and suck enough to get her fill is really getting to be difficult to power through.  But, I know its the best thing to do and part of the problem is my inability to stick with the things I should be doing.  I need some motivation!

March 25, 2009

Itty Bitty Getting Bigger

Posted in Breastfeeding, Habits, Itty Bitty Baby News tagged , , at 2:35 am by bk2nocal

Went to our second pediatrician appointment yesterday.  M is doing well – she is up to 4 lbs 13 oz, which means she has gained 8 oz in 7 days – which is pretty good.  We spent the majority of time with the Lactation Consultant. My prolactin is low, so I have to start taking some drug to fix that and M is still not really latching and sucking. She either sucks without latching or latches and then just sits there. But, the consultant seems convinced that we can make it work as she gets bigger. I have to admit I am not 100% at home with everything the Lactation Consultant says I should be doing. I’m just not totally motivated and I need to work on that. Here are some things I need to do:

–Pump more often – 10-12X a day, and I am more likely to be at 7-9 times right now. I just hate having to go to my bedroom and sit there while I pump. If I had a TV in there it would be better, but I don’t and reading a magazine while trying to double pump is about worthless. But, I need to do it in order to make sure that what milk I have sticks around until the medicine gets here.
–Do a better job of making sure I “nipple” M at almost every feeding. She would probably get better faster if I gave her more chances. I usually only do it two or three times a day because it is kind of a hassle to do when she either gets really angry and frustrated (when she is really hungry) or just sits there (when she is not really hungry). But, I should definitely try to do it every feeding that I am doing with her – the ones that J does with her I could take off.
–Drink more water. This will help with both milk production and probably exhaustion.
–Do more skin-on-skin each day. This is something that I can definitely do easily since the Moby will allow me to do it and still do things around the house, work on the computer, etc.  I did it for 45 minutes today, but M didn’t seem very happy with it and was fussy the whole time.  But, she has been a fussy baby today in general.

I also need to get going on my daily routines.  Our friends did a phenomenal job of getting the house clean before we came home with the baby, but I am having problems keeping it that way.  I made a list of daily to-do’s, weekly to-do’s and monthly to-do’s to try to keep up with it, but I have not been doing the list or delegating the list on a daily basis.  Today, I have finished the things I need to do in the kitchen and I’ve done everything but swept in the dining room (sweeping daily is key – we have all tile floors and a very hairy, shedding dog), but there is a lot more on that list.  I have started a load of laundry, but it needs to go in the dryer and then be put away.  The problem is I have not been doing the daily stuff and there is a bunch of stuff that needs to be done beyond that – sorting through a pile of stuff, gifts, cards, books, clothes in our extra bedroom, sorting through a bunch of stuff, including my pre-pregnancy clothes which I am now able to wear, in the garage.  It all just gets overwhelming.  But, if I got off my computer and did a thing or two on the daily list every hour, I think I can keep up with it.  I just have not been motivated.

My back hurts like hell lately…and I obviously could use some more sleep, but I think that will be the case for many months (years?) to come.  But, if I could get a handle on things around the house I think I would be much less stressed and more happy.  We shall see…

March 21, 2009

Itty Bitty Baby’s Beginning

Posted in Itty Bitty Baby News tagged at 1:38 am by bk2nocal

This blog is about my experience with mothering a preemie.  Our baby M was born on February 19, 2009 and she was due April 12, 2009.  She was one month old yesterday.  I went in on February 18 for a routine OB visit, and although I had been on blood pressure medication for two weeks, my blood pressure was still high.  In addition, when my Dr. hooked me up to the heart rate monitor for the baby for a prolonged period of time, there seemed to be a number of dips in the baby’s heartrate.  He first spoke of having me go to the hospital for some monitoring the following day, but upon further review of the heartrate and my blood pressure, he decided to send me to the hospital immediately.  They checked me in, hooked me up to the monitor for the baby’s heart rate and continued to monitor…the heartrate continued to have major dips and when my Dr. came back to check on me, he decided that I should go to a hospital about two hours away that had a NICU, because it was likely the baby was going to come early.  So, I flew on a helicopter to the other hospital, got checked in there and was told I could be there for two weeks as they didn’t want to take the baby any earlier than necessary.  The next day, an ultrasound was done and there was continued heartrate monitoring throughout the day and when the Dr. (a different Dr.) came in, he said that it was looking like they were going to need to take the baby ASAP.

So, I was given an emergency C-Section that night and M was born at 3 pounds 2.5 ounces, 16 inches.  She was in the NICU for three weeks and I was in the hospital for four days.  I had high blood pressure (from my preeclampsia, which is why M was early and small), but with medication, it came down quite a bit.  M did extremely well for her size – she was never on breathing apparatus, had a slight case of jaundice and “tanned” on a bili blanket for two and half days, began eating from a bottle (with no breathing or swallowing issues) at about 2 weeks old, and passed her carseat test on the first go-round.   She came home a week ago at 3.9 pounds!

She is definitely doing well.  Our first pediatrician appointment was the beginning of this week and she already weighed in at 4 pounds 5 ounces and she looked good according to the doctor.  She is eating like a champ and we have another weigh in three days from now and I am hoping she is continuing to gain weight.  My husband and I are sharing the responsibility, with me sleeping from 11 or midnight until 5 or 6 a.m. and him sleeping from 4 or 5 a.m. to 10 or 11 a.m.

Although it is exhausting, having her at home is SO much easier than the three weeks she was in the hospital.  So, it isn’t as bad as it was.  And we’re adjusting pretty well to the crazy hours.  Luckily we were already people who kept late hours and didn’t get a ton of sleep every night.  This is just an adjustment.

The one thing that is rough is not being able to take her out to places with us.  Because her immune system is a little weak still, we can’t take her to stores or the mall or around people who may come into contact with people or be sick themselves.  So, we’ve been pretty sequestered.  But, we go out individually and today we took her out in her stroller, which she seemed to enjoy (sleeping quite soundly the whole time).

I hope that following M’s progress will provide others with some idea of what to expect, but also give us a place to record milestones, information about parenting (esp. parenting preemies), and fun stuff.  I hope you will enjoy it too!