March 29, 2009

Eat, Sleep, Change, Repeat

Posted in Breastfeeding, Habits, Organizing tagged , , at 11:02 pm by bk2nocal

That is now my life.  And I guess it will be for a while to come.  I should put “pump” in there somewhere as well, but I’ve been really bad about that the last few days.  It is difficult to get motivated to pump when you really don’t get much milk and its somewhat painful.  I know I should continue to do it and I promise myself at the end of each day that I will be better about it the next day, but I’m not.  And now I have to face the lactation consultant tomorrow morning (we have another Drs. appointment and LC appointment) and I hate that.  Its like being back in school and not getting your assignment done and having to face the teacher.  The guilt…

I also need to try to work on organizing things in there somewhere.  Some days are better than others.  I got our bedroom (which we are now sharing with the bambino) all cleaned and organized yesterday – even vacuumed.  That is pretty good.  Now I need to work on the spare room, where I have moved all of my clothes to have room for the baby stuff in our closet.  In addition to organizing all the clothes and shoes in there, I need to get all the bags of cards and miscellaneous items that have been thrown in there from our stay at my sister’s and the baby showers and just randomness found while cleaning other areas of the house.  After that gets done (which has to happen this week because my in-laws are coming to stay with us next weekend and they will be sleeping in that room), I need to get cracking on the garage, which my sister described as “a baby store bomb went off in here.”  There are empty boxes, full boxes, plus all the other stuff that was in there before all the baby stuff showed up.  It really is an organizational disaster right now.

So, between the eat, sleep, change, repeat each day, I need to fit in these other things in order to be able to go back to work at the end of April without consternation!

If you haven’t figured it out, I’ve been horrible at keeping up with my commitments from the previous post.  I am really close to giving up on breastfeeding.  I don’t WANT to give up, but the whole pumping without enough milk and a baby who is too small to actually latch on and suck enough to get her fill is really getting to be difficult to power through.  But, I know its the best thing to do and part of the problem is my inability to stick with the things I should be doing.  I need some motivation!